I dont care about anything...?

Good luck with that! There will always be pain! there will always be something to make us feel bad, can't be helped. This is life. People and places don't give us what we need. It's how we feel about our self that makes us belong anywhere. We are just as good as anyone else in this world, no matter where we've been or what has happened. Hold you head up, do the right things in life, work, mind your own business, and be true to YOU.